inspiration.

hey guys;

things are a bit tough for me lately. i haven't had any inspiration to write for my blog. its sad, i know. but there is just nothing that comes to mind when i wanna write. i'm having some issues of my own. i'm trying to rely on God about it, but sometimes that can be tough. i'd love to get a new blog up by the end of the summer, but we'll see what The Big Man has planned for my blog.

sorry, i'd appreciate prayers though.
thanks,
sarah:)

50/50

so i'm sitting at my church's band practice while my mom is working the soundboard, and thought i would post my latest blog.


when i write something down, i feel more comfortable and strong on that certain subject. i don't know why, but whenever something personally is affecting me, i write it down in a journal. i feel alot better and more positive about it. it just makes me feel a little more confident. so with that being said, this blog entry is more for myself, but it can also help others. but its not something that is so personal i can't share it on my blog. so anyways, here goes.

every morning, we wake up thinking we'll survive the day. thing is we wake up with a 50/50 chance of making it through the day. either we'll make it, or we'll die. i know that sounds scary, but its the truth. only God knows if we'll survive, so we must be prepared for whatever happens. no one knows when their time will come. you might not wake up one day, you might be driving along and a drunk driver slams into your car, you might die in a school shooting. there are multiple ways that can come along, and you not even know that its your time. dont think you'll be able to make it through every single day. you will pass someday. hopefully that day will be when you're 90 years old. but we live in a society today that has no guarentees for us to stay alive. we must be prepared. live life to the fullest. but don't do stupid things like getting drunk or partying every night. live life like your dying by spreading the Word of Christ. He gave us the Ten Commandments to live by. sure, they're pretty hard to keep under your belt, but we should try our best to live by them. just invite Jesus into your life, and you'll for sure go to heaven, don't put it off anymore. you never know when your time will come, if you're not a Christian, you will go to Hell. and i'm sure that is no fun. so make the choice. the right one, just invite Christ into your heart, and you will be saved, and you will go to Heaven.

Matthew 4:16 "..the people living in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of the shadow of death, a light has dawned."

Army of One

okay; i thought it was time for a new blog, now i must warn you now, its possible this one and many of my others might offend you, and i'm sorry i didn't apologize for that as soon as i started this blog. so here goes;;

i was going through some of my friends Facebook profiles, and saw that for most of their Religion status said: Christian. Sometimes it would say a different kind of Christianity. But as i read this, i got the understanding that most of these people dont do anything about it. they'll say their a Christian online and in church and possibly if you ask them. but when someone is putting Jesus Christ down, and saying stuff that goes against him, they wont stand up for Him. For instance: you invite someone to your Youth Group and they say no because of they dont want anything to do with a church. or they dont believe in God. What do you normally do? Nothing. I've done this before. Many times. But really, we shouldn't be afraid to stick up for our faith. If everyone who said they were a Christian rallied together, we would become the Army of One. Which means we're all living the faith and not afraid to share it. We'd possibly be able to change the world. the way the world is now, we could use some change. We could change millions of lives without ever having to go to a different country on a mission. just right within your school, you could change the lives of people you see in the hallway everyday. now, wouldn't that feeling be great! so i hate to put it this way, but if you're one of those people, try and start changing lives.

1 Corinthians 12: 12 "The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ."

Eyes

why hello there! so a few weeks ago, i took my dad to the movies. we went and watched Avatar; WHICH i must say is an awesome movie. my dad and i enjoyed it very much. but it wasn't the movie that got me thinking...it was a commercial type thing for THX. you know that thing in the theaters that always shakes the building? the "wwwwaaaaahhhh!!!!" yeaa; that thing. anyways, when the noise is over a saying pops up underneath the letters THX. the saying is, "Believe Your Eyes." which got me thinking; we really shouldn't believe our eyes. our eyes can deceive us into thinking something is real when it really isn't. false idols and gods that we worship when we really shouldn't. but not just the deceiving things; the real things that actually exist, but are wrong for our spirits. Sex, drugs, alcohol, pornagraphy, even money. yes, i realize that we need money for our needs, but when it becomes an obsession so great that is controls our lives, its turned into something wretched. so heres the skinny: we should not trust our eyes. we shouldn't worship under false pretenses. we shouldn't be tricked into the world's ways. which include: gossip, fame, pride, the media as in MTV and VH1. dont go along with the ways of the world. there is this awesome place for Christian shoppers; its called c28. they carry this clothing line called NOTW. which stands for "Not Of This World". no, it doesn't mean we're aliens, it means God created us, and we're here for the purpose He has planned for us. Be in the world, not of it. don't get sucked into the man's wicked schemes; they'll only tear you down. Only Jesus Christ can keep us up out of the fire.
are you not of this world? or are you apart of it?

Galations 5:13 "You, my brothers, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the sinful nature; rather, serve one another in love."

The Past Is In The Past...

hey everyone. wowza; its been WAY to long since i've blogged. well to start it off i'm going to do something that a few of my friends have done. its just a little recap of 2009.

--2009--
-I've traveled to Oklahoma, Missouri, and Arkansas.
-I've transitioned from a middle blocker in volleyball to an outside hitter.
-I've met many new friends in the matter of 5 months.
-I've learned alot more about Creation and how to appreciate how beautiful everything God created is.
-I've experienced heartbreak in many different ways.
-I've had the best relationship with Christ than I've ever had before.
-I've learned that people that who you think will always be there, may sometimes leave.
-I'm in the process of getting closer to my LORD.
-I've discovered that I enjoy writing for my blog.
-I've experienced the best friendship anyone could ever have.
-I've gotten my life back on the right track.
-I've eaten to much fatty foods this year.
-I've developed an obsession for vampires(I know its really bad, but for some reason, they fascinate me. Yes, I know they aren't real.)
-I realized that you should stay busy so you dont get depressed, but not to busy that you're to worn out.
-I've spent most of my time reading, writing, drawing, or listening to music.
-I've lost someone who's family I miss terribly.
-I've witnessed to someone who won't listen to me anymore.
-I realized how stupid it was to be scared of high school.
-I've seen a ton of movies.
-I've seen how different a friend can be when they get into a new relationship.
-I've disovered lots of new music/bands that I enjoy very much.
-I've learned to accept the fact that nothing goes your way.


Alrighty then! Down to the nitty-gritty. So 2009 is over, 2010 is here. Time to welcome new opportunities and make more mistakes! Did you know that mistakes are sometimes good things? Especially when they make you run to God. So here's a little truthful story of mine; Oct-Dec of 2008 I was sort of a depressed being because of a boy. Yes, a boy. He made me depressed. I'd even dealt with thoughts of cutting. By January of 2009, I realized I didn't need him, so I ended it. Seeing how badly I'd hurt him, made me feel awful. I ran to God. He completely changed my life. I can't stand the sound of rap music anymore; I've only cried twice since my depression peaked; I'm rarely in my room anymore, I'm with my family most of the time; and most of all, my friends have seen the change, and it scares them. I literally feel the change and Him working in my life, and I absolutely love that. So lets just make it short this time. 2009 in over, with 2010 working its way in. Don't dwell on the past, look forward to the future, and the glories it beholds. You never know what you'll expect when it comes down to the future, thats what makes it so exciting! Worrying about the past wont get you anywhere; trust me. I worried so much about 4 months after I got over my depression. I worried about everything. But just let it go. Its in the past, and there is nothing you can do to change that.

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you." declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."

The Door

Hey there. Okay, its been a while since my last blog, and you can tell that. Ha. School's been crazy, volleyball just ended, so I haven't had much computer time. Anyways, here's why I decided to write now; yesterday I had my biology class; we've been discussing biological evolution. My teacher decided to ask the question, "If I were to teach a class on how the world began by a belief system, which religion should I choose?" Everyone in my class decides to shoot out random answers. My school is very diverse; we've got Jewish people, we've got Christians:), we've got Muslims; very diverse. Anyways, people just decide to shout out different answers. (and here is where we go a little off topic) Over the summer, I went to a church camp; and we have a night where people can stand up and share their testimonies and say what they want to say. Anyways, I got this feeling; I could barely feel my legs, I had gooseskin on my arms, my hands were shaking, my heart was pounding, honestly, I thought I was going to puke; right then, I knew had to stand up and share my testimony, when I did, it was awesome. (now we go back to the biology room) I got that feeling as soon as he said that question, I knew had to say something. Everyone is yelling out answers so I decide to raise my hand and answer instead. He called on me, and my answer was, "Christianity." He asked me why I said that, I took a deep breath and said, "Because the Bible is the very first piece of evidence that we have of how the Earth was created and how man was made."---thats what I've learned in the past few months. He looked at me and goes, "That's not true. There were plenty of religions before Christianity came around that had theories on how the planet was formed." I was absolutely humiliated. I turned around in my seat and thought I was going to cry. I had to blink because my vision kept getting blurred. I honestly wanted to run out of there crying; and I was close to doing just that. But we've been doing these bug trap things; sticky traps is more appropriate. Anyways, I thought my day was going to be crappy after that. It had totally dropped my day from an A letter grade to an F. His one statement made my day miserable. But as soon as I walked outside with two of my friends, telling them how I felt, I heard a horn honk. I turned around to see my dad sitting in his car right there. I wanted to burst into tears of joy. I was so thankful that he showed up; right then and there. Perfect timing. I came home and told my mom about it; and she told me that my dad had no idea that he would be going to my school that day. Total God thing. That night at youth group; our lesson was on how God wants us to open the door to our hearts for him. This morning; our lesson at FCA was on how God never abandons us; never leaves us, even though the door in our hearts seems closed to Him when we're down, He'll pull us through the thickness of the destruction. So no matter what life throws at you, opinions on evolution, divorced parents, abuse, addictions, conformity, no matter what it is; the door to God is always open as long as you leave it open with your choice. God will always be there to pull you through. Avalanche, drought, thunderstorm, God's always there. When other people have abandoned you; He's still there.

Galations 2:20 "For I have been crucified with Christ, and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God; who loved me and gave Himself for me."

I've Got a Hero, Living in Me.

Okay, I haven't blogged much lately. Schools been making everything hectic. Anyways, my all-time favorite band, Skillet, released a new album a couple of weeks ago. It broke and set a TON of records. I mean, the album is absolutely amazing. Anyways, back to the point. 9-11 was yesterday. People remembered what happened the day perfectly, but some of us only remember some things. Really the only thing I really remembered was I was at school, and the secretary came down to our classroom and told my teacher. They were both in tears, and none of us knew what was going on. I don't remember whether or not they let us out early, but I think they did. I came home; my mom was watching the news and her face was stained with tears. I've seen the pictures, heard the tales of people that lived through it. 9-11 was a big thing that crushed our nation. The only thing I really remember is the destruction it caused our people and our nation. The devestation, the depression, and the anger towards the people who did it. Some would say because of what happened to the Twin Towers is why we are in war, some would say it is for oil, and some would say that we are in war because the president was prejudiced. Who knows the real reason? No one on earth really knows. Not that I know of, anyway. Anyways, this all adds up to heros'. We've got police, firemen, marines, navy seals; everything to protect us. But only some people in the US have the True Hero inside them. Which would be our Lord, Jesus Christ. Now this is where Skillet comes into this blog. They just released their new music video for Hero yesterday. Perfect date, I know. But the words of the song make it even more perfect. I don't care if you like Skillet; if you like rock music, but the words to the song are ABSOLUTELY amazing. Just focus on the words and the video. It could change your life.

http://new.music.yahoo.com/videos/Skillet/Hero--217276434